It is in blogging that I usually write to remind myself, but it took me a while before realising that it would be selfish of me to simply click ‘Just sharing’ without the intention to spread what I have learnt. It took series of challenging incidents for me to steer away from my comfort zone and leap out of it with a whole new perspective. My mistakes, my past, my failure and my teachers have introduced me to the beautiful journey I once kept searching for. It has been right there all along! I have deleted most of my blog entries dated as far back from 2006. Why? Because one day, when I am no longer in this world, my past is not meant to be flipped and read all over again, especially if we know we have moved on.
I am still learning and exploring to seek for the truth and not giving up at it. For Allah.
Al-fatihah to my loved ones who passed on in 2011, and became part of the reasons how seeing jenazah shook my heart to shift my perspective in life. It’s in losing that we usually find something much much more.
• grandmother, Hapsah bte Abdul Jalil (1 Apr 2011)
• Mukallimatur Raihaniah bte Md Sapuan (26 July 2011)
• Tok Uteh Hj Abdul Rahman bin Salleh (17 Aug 2011)
• uncle, Ayah Cik Hj Awang bin Hj Ahmad (18 Oct 2011)
• Nenek Uteh Hjh Rajiah bte Hj Bujang (19 Oct 2011)
• my friend, Azidawati bte Abdullah (4 Nov 2011)
May we benefit from whatever that is shared, insya Allah.
—–
Raudha Ismail
