Let’s try this.  In hunt for a change, meeting different people brings about more self questions as we go through different sets of friends.  I tend to question myself when I am confronted with people who’d like to talk to us, meet us for many different reasons and I find myself coming back to that familiar unproductive feeling.

Time to get productive and inspired. It’s time to get back to work. Like how a good friend would put it – ‘Dah lah, that’s that. Dah macam gitu nak buat apa? I’ve reached to that phase where we shouldn’t bother what they would say’

The solution is here.  Raudha, welcome back now.

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friends, good times, weddings

The wedding where we didn’t get to take a picture with the bride & groom. Congratulations to Nona Kirana & Hisham Zain. Selamat melayari bahtera bahagia dan semoga meraih keabadian cinta dalam menjadi teman hidup dunia dan akhirat. Amin.

That’s Shaura Marissa! And since tomorrow is the last day for Shaura’s Gap Casting Call, I’d like you to cast a vote for my dearest Shaura.  If you find her cute, and you’d like to campaign for this in  your site as well, that’ll be lovely. Just link it back to my blog so that I know where you get it from

(1) Go to http://apps.facebook.com/gapcastingcall/?country=3

(2) Click alphabet “S”

(3) Find “Shaura Marissa” on Page 2 and press “Vote”

When you’re standing at crossroads

I feel indifferent towards the new year. It still feels like any other day. For the most part, I am overwhelmed with everyone’s expectations on how the new year could create some kind of miracle the moment we wake up to the next day. It is not.  It IS still any other day, only with a new date to motivate us to kickstart some kind of new beginning.  It takes a significant moment for us to suddenly push ourselves to make changes. Only new year, hari raya, and birthdays works for us – because we have been ‘taught’ that way.

For the most part, I have been having the urge to let go of some things, but second thoughts held me back.  We tend to say the meanest thing when we are angry, start having evil thoughts to make us feel good and others bad and forgot all about it when we  think it over. We overlook how 80% of the good things that person have done and got worked up over the slightest thing because we think we have the right to feel disappointed and upset over the 20%.

Maybe, we need to take the first step to get out of one door to get in the other. Maybe we just need to pack and go. Maybe we can choose to stay and let everything happen by itself till all doors stay shut. Maybe we don’t need to overthink anymore.

I have to remember that when we are emotional, we let go of whatever that is necessary to make us feel good at that point of time without thinking of it’s consquences and repercussions.  Standing at crossroads makes us confused, torn and gets agitated at ourselves.

Because I am guilty of that too and I shouldn’t blame when others did the same.

“I get angry too. Well I’m a lot like you” – I’ll stand by you